So today it begins, 224.6 pounds staring at me from the grey box located below my feet.  With my weight, I just want to pound on it with my feet and crush the grey box below.  That way I never have to step on it again.  But I decide that is not the best course of action and remain resolute in my decision that I really need to make that number much lower.  So I step off the grey box, go to my i-phone and enter my weight on my new fancy app—My fitness pal.   I diligently enter what I ate for breakfast, finish getting myself ready for work and go about my day.

Then it happens, 1:00 o’clock in the afternoon.  I am driving down I-84 east in Hartford and there it is—A huge Moe’s Southwest grill sign.  It says “Not every Homewrecker is on reality television”.   Below it is a huge picture of the most awesome looking burrito.  All I want to do is pull over, find the closest Moe’s and stuff my face with chips, salsa and burrito goodness.  Unbelievably, I actually head back to my office and I do not stop at Moe’s.  The first time in some time that I exercise self-control.  It gives me a bit of hope that I can stick with it.

I had to work later today and ended up needing to go directly to my son’s ballgame to pick up my daughter who was with my husband.  He helps coach my son’s baseball team and it is preferable not to have a four year old girl running around the dugouts 🙂   This meant I was delayed in getting home to eat.  And I was starving.  (ok, so not starving… obviously.  But hungry and wishing at that moment I had the burrito).  Once I finally got home I dove right into the turkey chili I had put in the crockpot that morning like I had not eaten in days, despite having just eaten at lunch.  I again input what I ate into my neat new app.  Completed my entry for the day and was told that in 5 weeks I would weigh approximately 216 pounds.  I felt a wave of defeat come over me…. In 5 weeks I will only lose 8 pounds?!   I want to lose it all now, I am not patient, hence me weighing 224.6 pounds.  Hopefully with day one down, day two gets easier.