Not surprisingly, this is not my first attempt at weight loss.  It is my millionth.  I felt this time I needed to do something different in order to stick with it.  So far, its a going.

I went grocery shopping this morning.  I saw that the grocery store had Ben and Jerry’s on sale, 2 for $6.00.  It hasn’t been that low in as long as I can remember.  I thought to myself, of course it is on sale like this now!  I wanted so bad to buy a pint of mint cookies and cream.  That is my favorite Ben and Jerry’s flavor.  I kept walking.  It was definitely a “win” for the morning.

I spent a lot of time outside today doing yard work.  I had not eaten enough and began to feel dizzy/tired.  I need to make sure that on days like that I eat a breakfast more substantial than just yogurt.

On my drive home with my children this afternoon I heard a song called “fight song”.  The premise of the song is that everything will be ok and you can fight through anything.  It made me feel empowered, like I can keep doing this.  The very next song was a song from Pink called “So What”.  That song immediately made me feel like “So What”!  I can eat whatever I want.  It was amazing how in the course of 5 minutes I went from thinking I am a diet goddess to screw my diet!  Being on a diet can do that to you.  That is a large part of the reason I have not been able to see this thing through in the past.  Every time I lose about 20 pounds I plateau, then gain it back.  I really want this time to be different.  Not just for me, but for my kids also.

I am looking forward to Monday morning and stepping on the grey box.  I am hoping that the results are really positive.  Especially since I didn’t have a cocktail today either– it better be worth it.