Today I had three separate and distinct times that I almost went ahead and threw all this hard work down the trash.  One time involved my walking by a tray of free cookies on two different occasions at the grocery store.  Both times I walked away.  Only now am I really happy I didn’t eat them.  I am very happy I got through the whole day on track!  YEA!

I have been craving Moe’s lately.  I saw that pesky billboard again today on my ride back to the office.  A burrito sounds SO good.  I also have been really craving chips and dip lately.  I think part of the reason I have been struggling is because I have been feeling a little down in the dumps and the immediately positive endorphins I get from bad food make me feel better.  Although I don’t feel better hours later or the next day, in the moment I feel better.  Same with alcohol– in fact, as I sit here now I could go for a glass of wine.  However, I won’t because as I have written numerous times, I really do think that this time is different.  Just writing this blog is helping make this time different.  If I didn’t have you to write to, I think I would have gone ahead weeks ago and just rode this train right off the tracks.

I might step on the grey box in the morning just to see where I am.  I don’t think I am going to log the weight, but I am interested to see with a couple of days that are ok (I wouldn’t say great because yesterday was an over day) where I am.  I know I definitely put on a couple of pounds.  I can just feel it.  I am hoping it isn’t too bad.