Well…. I was depressed today and I went over.  Not only did I go over, I did it first thing in the morning.  All fat people know what that means to be bad in the morning, it means, usually, the whole day is down the toilet.

I went to Dunkin Donuts this morning and ate 2 donuts AND a ham, egg and cheese on a toasted English muffin.  Yep… I had eaten almost all of my calories for the day before 9:00 a.m.  Now, I tried to save it and I ate NOTHING all day until after 5:00 at night.  Then… because at that point I was so hungry– and I was still feeling in the dumps a little, I went ahead and went WAY over today.

Fat people are fat people, even when they get thinner or lose weight.  The fat person is always in there waiting to get out.  And the fat person in me came flying out today– it has been buried pretty well for 87 days, but today it came out in all of its donut glory.

On a brighter note, I did step on the grey box this morning.  I was up a few pounds.  HOWEVER, I was still under the 200 mark…so I was pretty pumped about that.  Unfortunately, I have been feeling so crappy lately that it didn’t matter and I let my issues with other things creep in and I went over.

I am know that I will stay with this…. but it is comical how every other day since I have gotten back from vacation it has been a complete rollercoaster.  I am struggling– but I just need to get through the struggle and try again tomorrow.