Today I was hungry.  I didn’t eat all of my calories yesterday and it came back to bite me in the butt today.  Inevitably, I ate more calories today than I should have… upsetting.  I didn’t go crazy (like I wanted to), but I didn’t stay within my allotted calorie intake for the day.  What I did do was to log everything I ate and be honest that I went a little over.  It makes me want to eat more– I feel like, “well, I went over, I might as well just blow it”.  I keep telling myself not to do that.  And I haven’t yet, but the night isn’t over.

The other thing that is hard is that it is Friday and I did not have a cocktail or glass of wine.  I usually do every Friday, Saturday and Sunday.  Along with losing those “so many pounds” I have to lose, I am trying to cut back on my alcohol consumption.  The two things that help me release/relax (neither being healthy) food and alcohol- have caused me to get to that awful number I saw on Monday morning from the grey box.   I really never want to see that number again, and so I tell myself that skipping the alcohol and extra food tonight will be worth it.

Some say “nothing tastes as good as skinny feels”… they never had my famous melonball martini and bbq nachos.  But then again they look awesome in a bikini and I can’t even get a bikini bottom up my leg.