I had a good day overall and I walked three miles during lunch!  I found myself rooting around the cupboard for a snack after dinner and I found I really don’t have anything good to snack on.  I need to find some good snacks– other than veggies and fruit.  I eat that during the day, I want something of a small indulgence that isn’t a calorie killer.  When I was in college I had joined weight watchers and I was really successful.  Although I did not weigh nearly as much as I do now, I was a little heavy and I was able to lose the weight and keep it off for over 5 years.  Two of my favorite snacks were rice cakes with peanut butter and fat free kettle korn popcorn.  (as I am writing this I just went and added both of those things to my grocery list for the weekend).  I had learned to balance better eating habits and I regularly worked out.  Then I got a full-time stressful job and had 2 kids… which I have used as my excuse for not getting back into shape for the last 7 years.

Tomorrow at work we are having a company picnic.  I am planning on bringing in my own lunch.  The one thing I don’t know how to do is just indulge a little without completely going over.  Because this is still so early on in the process, I am afraid to stray off the diet at all for fear I will never get back on it.  I am literally petrified of not sticking with this.  My sister-in-law contacted me about getting together over the weekend and hanging out, which we do when she comes to Connecticut (she lives out of state).  She was bummed I wasn’t going to be drinking… which bummed me out a bit also.  But it stems from the fact that I am not sure if I know how to rein it in and just have a glass or two of wine.  I am apt to drink a whole bottle myself….or many martinis.